Me; Myself & i

Me; myself & I is all I got in the end; thats when I found out; that there ain't no need to cry, I took a vow that for now own I'ma be my own bestfriend ♥ ;-Beyonce: Me Myself & i

I love this song with a passion even though the only I can really relate to is the chorus. You think you have family and friends that you can trust with your life, but what happens when the people you trust leave you on your own, all you would have is yourself. This is why I chose not to trust or get too close to people. 1. Because I love being independent and 2. because at the end of the day, it just saves alotta of hurt and pain. Like, yeah I trust people but I don't trust them too much because honestly, I barely trust myself. Thats life & that's how I choose to deal with it.

-Jasz ♥

I'm Yours

My breath fogged up the glass; So I drew a new face & Laughed : ) Jason Mraz;-I'm Yours

I get what he means when he says this but I just don't know how to put it in my own words. To me, it means that when life is in a blur, find something good out of the bad. Even when things are bad, there has to be something good that comes out of it. This may sound crazy coming from me but it's actually true. It just took me a long time to realize it. I used to live life in kind of a blur & I used to let things get to me but in the end, I found something positive out of all the negative events that happened. So when your breath fogs up the glass; you just have to draw a new face & Laugh.......or eat a mint idk : ) Hahaa,

-Jasz ♥

Break Your Heart

If You Fall For Me, I'm Not Easy To Please, I Might Tear You Apart, Told You From The Start... I'm Only Gonna break Your Heart.-Taio Cruz; Break Your Heart

Everything that you just read up above is what I try to tell people when I first start talking to them. But then there are those people who think I'm playing when I'm being dead serious. Then they get all comfortable and try to blame me for "breaking their heart". Well, truthfully it's not all my fault. You should've listened to me when I tried to tell you. And on top of that, you had to do something that irked me to make me stop liking you. Then, you should've saw all the hints coming. Like, do you really expect me to be really "commited" to someone I'm not even going out with? Uhh...No!!! I have at least a good 10 years til I'll be a real serious relationship. I'll show commitment when I have a wedding band on the 4th finger of my left hand. So yeah........

I'll Be Missing You.

Every step I take. Every move I make. Every single day, everytime I pray I'll be missin' you. Thinkin' of the day. Went you went away. What a life to take, what a bond to break I'll be missing you.-I'll Be missing you; P.Diddy feat. Faith Evans

So I'm sitting here, not in the best mood & this song pops into my head. It's funny how everything happens at once & when you need somebody to talk to, the person that you usually went to is gone. Even though it's almost been a week, I still can't find myself to except the fact that you're gone. I'm still waiting for it to sink in because it hasn't fully sunken in yet. The worst part is, I didn't even get to say bye & that I love you sooo much. I keep telling myself that everything will be ok, that it's just a dream. I'm still wishing that I would just wake up & you will be here, but everytime I wake up, you're still not here. That's why I'm dreading Friday. Friday is supposed to be one of the best days ever but for me it will be one of the worst days of my life. Wednesday seems to be a pretty bad day to considering the fact that I lost another special person on a Wednesday. It might be weird to remember stuff like that but I don't care. Mann, if you were here, you would've been the first person I went to. But, again, you're gone so I really don't know what to do. I've cried all my tears so I don't know how to feel. I guess I'll just have to take it one step at a time. So until then, I guess I'll just sit here missing you more then you'll ever know. I know if you here you would say "Suck it up befor I beat you up" lol. So that's what I'ma try to do. It's hard but I'ma do it for you. I love you.

-Jasz; ♥

Airplanes.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars. I could really use a wish right now.-Airplanes; B.0.B feat. Hayley Williams

I used to hate this song with a passion just because of how it sounded in the beggining. I never actually sat there and listened to the song until I was in the car with my dad yesterday and this song came on. I was about to change the station but when I actually listened to it, and I noticed that this was exactly how I was feeling. If I could make a wish, I would wish that almost everything that's happened over the past few day was just a dream, a really bad dream. I wish that any moment now I would wake up. But it's not a dream, it's reality. It's something I don't want to deal with but unfortunately, I have to.

R.i.P Will ♥

Will,

Why bro? Why you? Out of all the people in New Jersey, why you? Bro I miss you so much you dont even know. Who am I gonna chill with at the field when our bro's got practice? Who's gonna sing/beatbox my bday song for me at exactly 12:00? I wish you could answer these questions, but you can't casue you're gone. You were the one I always went to with my problems. You were always there when I needed you. You always made me laugh. You always had my back no matter what. I always had yours & it was supposed to stay that way forever. You were supposed to be the one I was rooting for in the NBA. You were supposed to be one of the first people I called if I made it big. Now I can't. I know this may sound selfish but, why you? Why my big brother??? Why not anybody else in the world. Does God know how many people you've left behind? What about your mom, dad, brother, zai, kelss, gabby, rika, me [just to name a few). You were the only guy I could go to about everything!!! Now who am I going to turn to now? There's so many things that I could say, that I want to say but nothing will change the fact that you're gone. The main question that I have, is why??? But I guess that's a question that will never get answered. I can't believe you're gone. Actually, I refuse to believe you're gone. But just because I refuse doesn't change the fact that you're gone. I'm hurting so much right now. You know I'm not a cryer but I can't help but cry knowing that my big bro is gone. Crying doesn't solve anything. It can't bring you back but that's the only way I can release my pain. I've cried all my tears. Yeah I'm sad, but I'm really mad. I can't be mad at you, you had no control over this. If anything I'm mad at God. This may be wrong to say but I really don't care at the moment. This is another person he's taken away from me, I really don't understand why. So what am I gonna do now? I guess all I can do is take it one step at a time. A chunk of my heart is missing. No matter how much I need you here, I know you're in a better place now. It's hard to let go but I guess I have no choice. See yahh bro. I love you and miss you more than you'll ever know

Love. Jasz a.k.a Liddle Sisterrrr ♥

Love.

Love; So many people use your name in vain. Love; Those who have faith in you sometimes go astray. Love; through all the ups and downs the joys and hurts. Love; For better or for worse, I still choose you firs.- Musiq Soulchild:*//

Love; it's a four letter word with so many different meanings. It supposed to bring peace, joy and happiness. Yet it can also bring so much betrayal, hurt and pain. At this moment what do I think about love??? Honestly, I think love is a bunch of bull. Everyone that claims to love, leave. And I don't just mean relationship wise, because falling in love is not my thing. But it hurts when you have supposedly close friends and family that have the nerve to say I Love You, but they're usually the ones who end up hurting you the most. So my question is, what's the point of loving when it can just as easily make you hate. Maybe this is just me & my opinion but I just wanted to know. So before you think about saying I Love You to someone, make sure you mean it, cause in the end Love can do just as much damage as hate can.

-Jasz.

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My Bestest Best Friend!

How do I start this off? My bestfriend Taj is the bestest bestfriend I could ever have lol. He's been my bestest best friend since October. (That's a big deal because I've had alot of new bestfriends that I eventually end up forgetting about, but I didn't & can't forget about this bestfriend lol.) He's always doing something to make me laugh when I don't feel like laughing. He gives me advice on stuff and I do the same for him. Even if it's not the best advice, at least he tried to help right? Lol. He always has some silly game to play & he may say the dumbest things but all I can do is laugh & nod my head just so he can have his "smart moment" Lol. I'm about to stop because if I keep going I might end up writing a whole book about my best friend. So on that note, just know that my bestfriend is the bestest bestfriend a girl can have even if he calls me a chicken & implies that I'm fat lol [insider). Ilyouu bestfriendddd : )

-Jasz ♥